After receiving two job position rejections I am still looking and trying to be as optomistic as possible. It’s not easy. I know what I would love to be doing but am not certain how to go about getting that. I love to write, as is evidenced by the three blogs I try to keep up to date, and love photography but I am not really sure what I can do with either of those. I am by all accounts an amateur when it comes to both arts but I have been told by numerous people that I have talent in both. So, the thing for me is to know what exactly is the next step. I want to know whether anyone would actually ever pay to read what I write and to see or use my photos.

I am not giving up on my dream of living in NYC. I will get in there one way or another. I do, however, think that trying to get a nanny job over there is more difficult than trying to get into Juilliard was (and that is a pretty hard task–I didn’t get in but there are those who will audition 3 or 4 times before they finally get in). Some people seem interested and then just drop you without warning, others turn out to be scammers and others just decide to go in a direction they originally thought not possible but ended up being a definite possibility (those are usually the good people who at least are communicative enough to let you know things sincerely and frankly).

I just wonder how some people with no experience before whatsoever get great nanny jobs starting out and I, having had more than ten years experience with children, can’t seem to find even a simple job. I just don’t get it…it’s very frustrating. So, I don’t know whether I should keep looking or whether I should go in a different direction and try for something other than childcare. I have some thinking to do and really need to focus this week. I’m not bitter though, I see this as a light on a new path.

Since I’ve got so many talents that I believe I should exploit in some way, shape or form I decided today to download a free trial of CS4 and play around with it. I did and boy did I have fun. Some of my creations came out a bit weird looking since this is the first time I actually ever use PhotoShop. I was experimenting with “textures” and “actions” which you can’t really do with the online photo editing tool that I’d been using. So, without further ado, here are the photos I worked on:

I used a texture on this one, however subtle, since it was the first time I was experimenting with textures. I still have not found any photos that I want to apply that many textures on but I am going to keep trying. I found some really interesting textures on which was fun to look through. There are so many different texture and actions on there. I need to go back to see if there are any fun layers to add to PhotoShop as well!

On this one I used an artsy texture for my self-portrait. I’m not sure I really like it, I think I may work on this one a bit more. I’d like to explore some more textures. The following photos are the ones I edited using different actions. I found the majority on a webpage called Vision Widget¬†which had many actions to choose from. I was having a ton of fun with those!

I really like the effect this action gives the photo above. It looks like a magazine photo now. The action is called “darkness” and I think it will work best for those city photos that are very bright. The original photo is below:

The difference is spectacular! They look like two different shots. I really enjoyed that action. On to the next:

Here is a set of the same photo edited with an action called “POP” which had three different settings. The above results were satisfactory and I think that I will definitely use this action more often. Please note that the above photo is part of my year long photo project and the original can be found on my Flickr page (in order to view it you must be added as a friend or family contact).

This sweet photo of my littlest niece, Gianna, was edited with an action called “Wedding Enhancers” using one of the black and white conversions. I really like the tone of this particular action. The remaining photos are in these two collages:

The above were a few of my favorite shots from 3 different places. The first is the Flatiron Building, second some pumpkins in Princeton, and last a seagull in Florida. All edited with different actions on PhotoShop and collaged via Picnik!

This last one also contains photos edited with PhotoShop and softened with Picnik. I love photo editing tools! Well, that’s what I’ve done so far. Tomorrow is another day!